A fantasy… “Watching”

by Nimue on July 29, 2010

Note:  I don’t generally write fiction, but the following story is a combination of a few fantasies that have been floating around my head for quite some time.  I expect it to run over several posts as it is still a work in progress.  I hope you enjoy, and please feel free to leave feedback!!

I’m sat at a table in the corner of the pub.  She’s sitting at the bar, waiting for someone.  She doesn’t know I’m watching her.  She doesn’t know that the girl she’s waiting for isn’t going to turn up.

I know.

I am that girl.

Though you wouldn’t know it to look at me tonight.

I’m dragged up and packing.  My breasts are bound, my face showing stubble.

The door opens and she turns her head.  She’s getting worried now, she’s starting to suspect she’s been stood up.  I put down my pint and walk up to the other end of the bar. I catch the barmaid’s attention….

“a drink for the lady in the red dress”.

She pours the drink, a double rum and coke and I chuckle to myself.  The girl has had at least 3 of those while I’ve been watching her, she must be at least tipsy by now, much easier to take advantage of.

As the drink is placed in front of her and the barmaid tells her who it’s from, she looks along the bar at me and blushes. I smile at her, I know I can put her at ease.  Shyly she mouths “thank you” to me, and watches as I walk closer to her.

I know what turns this girl on.  She doesn’t know it, but I know all her weaknesses, all her dirty little fantasies.  I learnt them all through the months of being the girl she’s waiting for.  The intimate discussions, the dirty phonecalls.

My heart beats hard as I speak, worried she might hear something familiar in my voice, that the game will be up.

“you look like you’re waiting for someone”

“I was meant to meet someone here, but they’ve not turned up”

“I’m sorry to hear that, though I don’t know why someone would stand up such a pretty girl.”

She blushes deeper red and looks away.  I rest my arm around her shoulders and feel her tense up slightly.

“I’ve been watching you all night, thinking of all the things I’d love to do to you.  In fact, you’ve got me quite turned on.”

Her breathing freezes as she tries to figure out what to do.  She tries to shrug my arm off of her, but I wont be moved.

“Please let me go, my friend will be here soon”

“No she wont.  I know your type.  Good for an internet romance and phone sex, but not good enough for the real thing.  Only reason they ever turn up is if they think you’re gonna be a good fuck, and you’re obviously not.”

She opens her mouth to object, but my fingers dig into her shoulder and she feels something pressed into her side.  A gun, or a knife? She doesn’t know, but she knows enough not to object too much.  I lean in and whisper in her ear,

“now, you’ve got me horny bitch, so even though you might not be a good fuck, you’re gonna come back with me and I’m gonna see what pleasure I can get outta your body.  Finish that drink.”

She looks at the untouched glass in front of her, she’s not had a chance to drink it, but she picks it up and struggles to down it.

As soon as she puts the glass back down, I guide her off her chair and towards the door.

“please, I need to use the bathroom before we leave,” she whimpers.

“No, you don’t.”  She feels the weapon press into her side again, a signal not to argue with me.

We step out of the pub, into the fresh air and head to the nearest taxi rank.

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Outing

by Nimue on July 28, 2010

I was really stuck on what to write about today, so I headed over to Submissive Journal Prompts for some ideas and one of their questions was “How would you handle being outed in the vanilla world?” and that got me thinking!

First of all…. what do they mean by the “vanilla world”?  I guess to most people that would be non-scene friends, work colleagues and family, so I’ll take those three sets of people separately. Non-scene friends….. well, to be honest, I don’t really have any of those – maybe it’s a little sad, but most of my social life revolves around scene events and scene people.  That doesn’t mean we don’t do “vanilla” things, but just that i don’t have any worry of being outed to them, as they already know what I do.  Colleagues, similarly – I don’t have many of them that I’m not already out to, most of the shoots I do involve kink in some way, shape or form, so I’m not terribly worried about those people finding out what I do.  I am always careful when doing non-kink shoots, not to give the photographer more information than they may be comfortable with.  But that is purely because I don’t feel I need to give intimate details of my life to people it’s not relevant to.  If they’ve seen my other work and ask more about it, I’m happy to tell them more, but if they’re not interested, I dont think it’s fair to force it upon them.

There has been one occasion where I’ve been outed at work, though.  I used to work in a pub, where we got loads of builders in every morning for breakfast, so I obviously got to know them quite well, and they got to know “the girl who does the breakfast shift” as well.  Then one morning they started coming in, and as I was pouring their orange juices and coffees, one of them said over the bar “we’ve seen your pictures on the Internet, love”!!   Obviously I blushed bright red and denied all knowledge…….. (actually, I claimed I didnt’ know what pictures they had seen – not a lie at all, but I didn’t know whether they’d seen some of my early hardcore SM stuff,  or some comparably tame flashing and nude in public stuff….. it turns out it was the former, but I didn’t learn that til the end of the week!!)  But there were lots of mutterings all around until they had all finished.  Fortunately, in this situation, I was at no risk of loosing my job – the landlord knew exactly what I was into, and in fact, for several years, allowed us to hold a munch in his pub – but it was slightly uncomfy, because the other two people working with me that morning were older and rather judgemental.  They kinda had a vague idea I might be into bdsm, but didn’t know for definite and definitely wouldn’t have liked the idea of me doing porn!!

The last category I mentioned above is family, and this is where it gets a little more complicated.  I’m totally out to my mum and her boyfriend, they know what I’m into personally and what work I do, and have seen my blog etc.  It’s a great feeling to not have to hide what I’m doing from my mum – we are very close and it would be awful not to be able to share my successes with her.  I am out to my little brother as bi – he has met R and they get on well, which is lovely – but the rest of my family don’t know anything.  It does make it very hard to be constantly asked by various family members when I’m going to find “Mr Right” and settle down, and up until now it has always been easier to avoid the questions than say “well, actually I’m looking for Miss Right”.   That is going to change, as I don’t want R to be a guilty secret – she gets on fab with mum and lil bro and I’d love her to come along to family stuff with me.

As for coming out about the bdsm and porn to the rest of the family, I don’t really feel any need to do that myself, because as they don’t tell me about their sex lives, i don’t wanna tell them about mine.  However, I have had threats of outing several times and have discussed it with my mum (another reason why it’s great to be so close with her – she can help with damage limitation!!) and if the situation ever arises, which I hope it wont, we know how we are going to approach the rest of the family.  Fortunately my closest family are all fairly open minded, and their biggest concern would probably be my safety and well being.  If they can see that I’m safe and happy, they wont object too strongly, although my nan is a worrier, so I think she might unfortunately loose some sleep over it, wondering if i’m safe etc, but I think in the end, she knows I’m strong enough to look after myself.

So, enough about me……… I’m interested to hear how you guys would deal with being outed

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A bondage filled weekend

July 26, 2010

This weekend was great fun, with a lot of bondage – a lot more than I usually get!!  It started out on Saturday morning with me heading to Warrington for a bondage for photographers workshop, which was great fun.  It was run by Rod, the rigger and photographer behind all these images, and was aimed [...]

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Sexual or Spiritual (part bondage)

July 23, 2010

Yesterday, I talked about how the SM side of play can be anything from sexual to spiritual for me, but today I want to talk about bondage, and how that feels for me. For me, there is nothing sexual about bondage.  It is something very, very different.  But only if it is tight, stressful bondage.  [...]

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Sexual or spiritual? (part one)

July 22, 2010

For a lot of people, i think that BDSM is purely sexual – they do it cos it gets them wet or hard.  And there’s nothing at all wrong with that, but for me, BDSM is more than just foreplay.  In fact, I would be perfectly happy if there was never any “sex” involved in [...]

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Suspension?

July 8, 2010

Anyone who knows me, knows that I am a huge fan of  rope bondage, especially suspensions, but recently i’ve been thinking more about hook suspensions. When I do a severe rope suspension, I feel very peaceful and calm.  It’s a time of nothingness.  My mind is blank, I’m not aware of anything at all other [...]

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Wimping out

July 6, 2010

Sometimes play doesn’t always go as you’d like it to.  That’s what happened when W and I tried to play a couple of weeks ago.  We were both in the mood to play, I was in a playful mood and I knew I was going to get a spanking.  Messing around and teasing, kneeling on [...]

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More Nimue Pr0n!!

July 2, 2010

Wow, it seems that occasionally I go throught a dry spell, and then all of a sudden I have loads more exciting pics to share with you all!! This time it’s pics from a wonderful day out I had with Mission of Exhibition last summer, visiting a few tourist attractions!!  First of all, what better [...]

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It’s been a while, but – More Nimue Pr0n!

June 24, 2010

I know, I know, just recently I’ve been all rambly and talking on and on, and you guys just want the porn don’t you?  Well, you dont have any longer to wait cos guess who has another photo set going up on Northern Spanking…. Yup, it’s me.  This time I’m a nurse working in a [...]

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Just a Quickie

June 23, 2010

It’s been a busy and somewhat stressful few days recently, so I’ve been avoiding the computer and not updating, so I figured I’d do a quick update of what i’ve been up to before I go away again!!! Saturday night we held a high protocol dinner party – great fun, but very hard work.  W, [...]

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